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Thursday, March 09, 2006

the worst feelings u've ever had?

the most painful ting is wen my spiritual life is down.. n tt is when nth seems to work and at tt point of time i never fail to go crazy.. tt feeling.. its jus as if im alone in the world.. altho it isnt..
another ting wud b when everyting jus come at one shot.. its like mani gun shooting at u.. and even if u can dodge.. u wun b able to dodge all.. some will get u.. n more will get u while u r down.. problems.. n even more problems jus come up.. i noe the solution.. bt sometimes i jus dun tink of tt solution at the firs instance....
someting else tt alwaes happen to mi til i alrd sort of sian liao dun wana care anymore is ppl backstabbing.. i alrd noe gt ppl sort of backstab bt.. wad can i do? anywae tt guy nv fails to backstab ppl.. nvm..

well back to blogging.. tues i had tis enormous amount of stress onto mi.. i tink its tues if im nt rong..it was as if i was goin to burst.. its jus unbearable.. *on the verge of breaking down* bt i din noe wad to do.. so i decided to jus slp earli tinking tt i wud b feeling better bt nx dae.. i was totalli din hav any feeling to do anyting.. i was practically empty tt dae.. bt ppl arnd mi din understand so dey tot i was jus slacking n tts y im lieing on the table.. wen dey said tt.. at tt point of fime i din even wana bother explaining to dem wad happened.. din expect wen facing stress it can get to tt point.. as in i feel so powerless against stress at tt point of time.. bt somehw in the dae it was lifted up.. especialli after caregrp.. tt teaching was jus so great.. it directly spoke to mi into my life.. i was.. hmm.. burdenless..? i finalli found an answer to everyting.. thank you Lord.. guess i will b ending here.. see wen i gt time i shall blog again.. try my best to blog everydae..
[time.. its someting tts hard to figure out.. for mi..]
[its especially slow sometimes when we are bout to lose someting..]
[trying to look at things frm a perspective.. try..]
[trying to change.. change to be more discipline..]
[trying to overcome the thinking of "its so troublesome thinking"]
[trying to overcome the fear?]
[trying to gain back things i lost]
[trying to stop losing things..]

Signing off, aL0y.

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