play around with the bounceicles. drag them round. jump on them. and more!

「 flying away? 8:24 AM 」

unlimited receiver?

firstly.. i got back my modern world history paper.. i am very pleased! i passed! yeah man.. the moment i got back my results i knew it was God=D if it wasnt God who guided and accompany me through the exams.. i wud have flunk it again.. simply cos in the past.. if i din noe hw to carry out my plans.. in fact up til nw.. i still have probs carrying out plans.. tings tt i plan to do.. smth alwaes happens hahas..so yeap.. and mind u i onli did 1 part of the seq qns.. leaving the other part totally blank.. it was plain mad! but God pulled me through.. my southeast asia history wasnt as good i failed but i saw hw much potential i have in me.. just like hw God sees my potential.. gosh.. its so overwhelming.. but all this wouldnt have occurred if i din have God with me.. its such a close shave for all this tings im typing to be some dreams of mine.. if i chose another road.. woo.. dun even wana tink wad will happen hahas.. yep finalli finished some chem paper in the afternoon.. i still have quite abit of chem to cover b4 i confidently say chem is cfm A1.. yup.. working towards.. tt.. planned out 1month of studying.. feel so much safer.. the peace in me.. and the peace that is going to be in me when my O lvls is approaching would be 1 memorable part of my life..=) o ya.. and im so glad that im able to lift my stress.. my burdens.. my cries.. to this unlimited receiver which has an infinite of space for me.=D thank you God! well.. til then cyas,

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 8:31 AM 」

unexpected! miracles!

k.. todae i finalli gt back more papers.. first unexpectation.. my bio.. my combined sci.. i was thinking all the way that its a goner.. but someone said to me that there may be a miracle..i din realli believe in it as the situation was bad.. with my bio scoring 22.5/80 without mcq and my chem onli 60/100.. hw.. just hw could i pass.. but my loving and almighty God prove me wrong.. i was able to pass my combined sci as my bio's mcq score a 19/20=) im such a fool to not believe and trust fully.. man.. thank you God.. 2nd unexpectation until i expected my maths paper 1 and 2.. din do as well as i expected.. it was wayyy below.. at first it was a b3.. first it is nt close to my expectation. 2nd its nt even an A! i expected at least an A2.. not disappointed but i didnt understand why.. i got those marks.. and i got my answer.. from God above.. its to prevent me from getting proud.. thinking back.. if i got the results i expected i would be flying arnd hahas.. well.. thank you God.=) You alone is enough.. it doesnt matter how well i do.. im just a christian that happens to be a student=) well well.. my mt compo + letter writing failed by 1 mark.. wasnt realli surprised.. yeah.. went back home todae.. had a rest.. and went cafe cartel to meet yiqin.. learned new tings! after that rushed down for maths tuition.. having a test cos i missed out on 2 days of tuition.. and the rest had their test on those 2 days.. and went to rc at nite.. wah.. i missed rc soo much.. the place where ppl gather.. the atmosphere in rc is just so attractive.. =D when i came back home.. xh ask mi play this game.. quite fun hahas..but at the same time irritating.. cos sometimes i get the answer but i no point!=.= God.. u r realli so wonderful that i wana sae i love you God.. ah.. times of trouble.. times of disappointment.. You were there for me.. friends.. if you guys need any prayer.. and you dun believe in christianity.. let me know and i will pray for u k? =) i will wana let u guys experience it.. its so overflowing..the love of God.. so serene.. so calm.. so soothing.. thanks to you God..~bye

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 11:30 AM 」

the perfect plan!

whole day in sch seemed quite long til the last 2 periods hahas.. it was so BORING.. no maths results.. no mt results.. NO NTH!! i looked forward to maths results so when der wasnt any i was quite frustrated.. and even more when i din get mt de.. it just seemed like i came sch for nth hahas.. altho its studying larh.. but exams finish must get exams results mah! hais.. e4 gt back both maths paper 1 and 2 results liao and my class is still stucked at paper 1.. somemore is tmr.. which is wednesday den get back.. gosh.. we are soooo slowwww.. but thank God my english wasnt that bad.. quite gd in fact.. maybe i gt the chance to get A2? maybe.. yarh.. it all depends on my compo nw.. the determining factor for my english grades. i went home.. studied abit.. watch tv abit.. and time passed very quickly.. i slept at 9? hahas.. suddenly feel so tired..and slept.. and i set my alarm to 10pm.. cos i wanted to get up.. and spend some quiet time with God.. after 1 whole day.. that amount of time is my "reward!" but.. i overslept.. wondering hw im here nw? i too duno=D i was quite upset that i din have the discipline to wake up.. but i guess God has other plans.. and so nw.. at 2.37am on sep 27 im able to spend time with God without being tired! YEAH! its just so perfect that i dun believe it.. Isaiah 41:10 to christians that happen to be a student and if ur results are not what u have expected. nvm! cos there is smth better for u! til then cyas

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 6:48 AM 」

to give up the car key of my life

todae arh.. super slack.. well it was meant to be.. for me =/ wanted to slack til mon.. den start again.. after all exams are really draining.. so.. =P went west mac to meet star.. wanted to study abit? but arh.. shucks i cant even get myself to study in west mac.. can larh but nt efficient.. went to eat arnd 4-5+? quite earli but doesnt realli matter hahas.. and took bus home.. had tis tiny weeny lil bit of disappointment? but thru tis tiny weeny lil bit of disappointment it proved to me more that i should let God take full control of the car of my life.. to let Him drive the wheel.. cos i simply noe that without God i would burst.. either in the prelims or O lvls.. i noe im nt capable of taking up burdens on my own.. simply because i wasnt made to take up burdens on my own but rather to carry these heavy burdens with God who will make it light.. well.. cyas
EDIT : something happened right after i took the baby step which is the first step give my control to God.. tings just work better with God arnd..=D

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 9:59 AM 」

guess i need to do tings i need to do.

today met at small mac YEAH! i was the first to reach.. hahas i was earli actualli.. thanks mark and joseph for being early too=) we waiting til 10.30am and start our 15mins "grace" tt means we waited til 10.45 and left.. nich and alvin came abit later but within tt 15mins grace so yep. realli like tis kinda ting where everyone can be just early or at least punctual? altho yar sometimes im lidat but i will change! =D we had some fun on the way to somerset i guess=) no transvestite today tho. phew.. reached starhub and sat down.. wanted to read bio.. but i guess i realli wana slack til monday hahas.. so i din realli study.. im better off studying notes.. especially for memorising subjects T_T den went for service.. i can say WOW with my jaws dropping this service is just freaking greaT! i could totally feel it.. the presence of God.. its just so comforting.. so soothing.. and just simply wonderful! to refresh my memory of someone great that is with me all the time.. man.. i dun care wad ppl say but my GOD IS GREAT! geez.. saw a few faces that i haven seen arnd for sometime.. and YEAH! junyuan gt convert YEAH MAN! the nx time we are gonna have our prayer meet in music room etc! gosh.. i miss prayer meets.. aww.. times when we had it was fun.. o yarh.. after service we walked arnd.. went with nigel to cold storage to get some sushi.. [din tink i wud be able to eat it after ytd buffet of sushi..] den to 7-eleven for big gulp! starhub is gonna close down soon T_T arh.. im gonna miss the "satays" der.. hope tt when the stall holders der move to cuppage plaza, they wud move the "satays" along with them? hope.=D hahas.. anywae watched i am sam on nigel's com.. we skipped quite alot of part.. BUT [i am sam] is a movie that is a must watch.. nice story lines, a show full of emotions.. gosh.. if i watched the whole movie i would cry hahas.. but we skipped quite a few parts cos nigel's laptop nt enough bat.. and thank God the laptop went into hibernating mode just right after we watched finish [i am sam] den i walked arnd.. and found this grp of ppl doing someting weird.. they were playing mahjong! and the mahjong tiles were like so super small size that mahjong could be played on 1 of our school tables. imagine tt?=D went west mac after tt.. on the mrt back to tampines we talked quite abit.. got to know a few more ppl? yep. went to west mac after tt to watch movie.. on nigel's laptop.. cos there gt plug can charge hahas.. but.. 1 guy hogged it for quite sometime to go on internet.. so.. meanwhile i taught mag some chem.. den saw zhiliang and some e4 guys.. after they left i saw stella.. and awhile more i saw some e2 girls.. i was like =O cos it was quite late u see hahas.. anywaes.. tt guy finalli went off! so we watched [Just My Luck] quite an ok show.. but i guess its kinda dumb? hahas.. if u wan see just hw pathetic an extreme bad luck can be.. and just hw perfect a luck can be.. watch it lol.. went off after tt.. mi alvin jiajia and pei chye i tink.. went home together cos we stay arnd the same areas.. yarhs.. den separate again.. hahas.. and here i am blogging.. i realised just hw much i shud really do cos im really living a blessed life.. not because of anyting but because i have God.. aiya.. hahas.. well cya.
[humans just think too much of themselves.]

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 8:15 AM 」

YAY! relaxed=))

o ya i forgot to add on.. ytd which was thursday.. we had a "kill the lizzie" trouble.. hmm.. at first i saw 1 lizard small one larh..din care much bout it.. den yiqin found it in 1 of the pails.. so he tot it was dead.. and he took some water frm the tap.. and dropped it on the lizard.. and it moved suddenly.. AH! was yiqin's reaction lol.. it was freaking funny.. but it soon.. attracted the attention of ah be.. den she came in.. and the kill lizzie "campaign" started.. we soon tot of ways to kill it.. and yiqin suggested flooding it.. but however.. it may just run out of the pail when it touches water yeah? den another idea was suggested.. forgot by who.. we gather a bigger amount of water.. so that it would nt allow the lizzie to have time to crawl out? so the 3 of us prepared for the war against the small lizzie.. and then water poured in! result were expected.. it couldnt crawl up for a moment.. however few secs lata.. the lizzie proved us wrong.. it started to crawl higher and higher.. but at a very slow rate.. so we ganchiong liao hahas.. stupid yiqin suggest to pour oil to suffocate it..=.= at first it sounded quite rite.. after awhile i was like.. the lizard dun breathe in water so oil or no oil doesnt matter.. so we din use it.. dun waste marh.. in the end i made soap solution and poured.. and lizzie start to die off.. and i did the ultimate.. poured everyting is toilet bowl.. just in case hahas.. yeah it went down all da way.. after all tt big commotion we went out.. o ya.. if im nt wrong.. xue ying i tink.. came in halfway and said we quite cruel.. hmm.. quite true.. din wan to disturb it at first.. but aiya.. tink its better for it to not be in RC=/ yeap.. k lets move on ..
FRIDAY
went to control station to meet the grads grp.. to celebrate ben's birthday! yeah.. we saw some e2 ppl gathering .. going for seoul garden i tink.. yep.. we went suki sushi at cineleisure.. waited awhile.. den mi winstar and tim went to tcc to get oreo cheesecake for ben =O o ya.. cheesecake is his favourite=D k btw.. by the time we got in.. dey were already sitted.. and yiqin said ah sam.. i was like who is ah sam.. den o.. its samantha.. used to be my ministry leader=X din expect to see her der lol.. anywaes.. we ate til quite full.. and talked about stuffs.. yep.. guess we got to know more about each other.. after that i was still on hyper mode cos my prelims has finished and for the first time in my life i was studying for more den 2 weeks? =O tts like WOW. xD k.. so i decided we should.. watch movie! nicholas and tim had to go.. so we bought tickets for pulse[not realli recommended..] it looked nice at first.. but in the end it wasnt as horror as i expected.. i was shocked.. by a car crash=.= and not the contents of the movie.. here and der gt a few bahs.. but overall.. nt tt gd.. yeah.. went walking arnd heeren.. for quite some time.. den ended up at hmv if im nt wrong.. after awhile we left.. we saw a tranvestite at somerset mrt station! den took mrt .. after tt i went to meet nigel for the pasar malam.. suquan came too.. talked about life in sch etc.. yep.. and came home after 1 whole tiring day.. phew.. YEAH! my life's an exciting one =D cyas

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 6:21 PM 」

seek and you will find!

hmm.. haven blog since mon.. k..
Tues
had my chinese paper 2 and South East Asia history.. chinese paper 2 was quite ok.. monday i was super stressed and had the "i wana slack whole day feeling" mainly cos i dun have my oddysey txt bk! i lost it since last yr.. and my notes for last yr seems to have been lost too.. however i found 1 last note.. invasion of japan.. i guess i onli had tt to study?=/ BUT this is nt the end.. of cos in this times of trouble.. ultimate! pray to God.. =) and thanks yiqin for helping me pray that certainly felt alot better.. this prayers are not just talking and speaking rubbish.. because someone great is listening =) on tues i went for exam and guess wad? history paper.. THE QNS CAME OUT!! on 1 hand i was happy.. but on the other hand i was quite.. disappointed i shud say? that there was actualli a leak of topics to ONLY a few students? and none frm my class i shud say? gosh.. it just shows the biasedness against MY class.. hais.. i guess in every sch ders bound to be someone lidat? teachers that placed judgement on classes that they think that is hopeless? well.. doesnt affect me so=)
Wed
had my maths paper 2... phew the qns that came out were those i were better at.. cos i also have qns that i know i would die at=/ thank God they did not come out at all.. but aiya! as days goes by i seems to have more and more careless mistakes lidat.. just hope i can realli get my A1 for maths T_T
Thurs
i had my bio test.. GOSH it killed me completely.. i totally forgot about those topics that came out.. i expected more on plants and labelling of plants structure.. but aiya.. my fault.. shucks.. wonder if its just us or all bio classes face the same ting.. cos if nt den .. .. .. ms lin sure disappointed.. arGH! guess i shud realli start chionging my bio! 1 month left guys! have to chiong ler!! den had my geog elective ..realli hope i can at least pass? if possible higher marks.. will do better for o lvls de!
Today(Friday)
just had my science mcq.. hahas.. and its 9.23am.. nw=) din noe wad to study for bio and chem .. i mean mcq.. but here and der i studied abit.. this qns in the bio test todae shocked the hell outa me.. cos i was like.. I NV SEE THIS DISEASE B4! kwashiokar.. aiya wadeva larh.. smth lidat de=/ so naturalli i din noe wad was the cause of it.. so i prayed for that ans.. and i wrote protein.. and everyting ended! YAY NO MORE PRELIMS FOR ME.. cos im gonna move on to another phase of my life and not coming back to junyuan for studies! wooo.. on the way home.. i asked shawn about tt qns and he said tt qns' ans is protein! i WAS REALLI?! cos he read up on that if im nt wrong.. and the ans shud b correct oso.. SO YEAH!! even in mcqs i can experience God! WOO!! going out to celebrate prelims' over and at the same time someones' birthday! WOOSH! YEAH MAN! cyas=)

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 7:52 AM 」

reminders and testimonies[this post most likely does not appeal to non-christians]

let mi fully describe my events that had taken place and let this post be a reminder for me=)
On last wednesday
i had my english paper and during my EL paper 2 my pen's ink stucked while i was writing halfway through the summary and i remembered how God made water of the rock in the desert and i said this prayer "God made ink out of my pen like how u made water of the rock and all this i claim by faith in the name of Jesus" after a few seconds later.. my ink returned.. how do i noe its not an coincidence? firstly the ink was like a new pen, secondly the ink stucked immediately after i finish my summary.
On last thursday
i had my SS paper man it was tough studying in on wednesday night i tried my very best to memorise but to no avail.. however my God said and assured me.. just study health and education system it will come out BUT people around me said nahs it has a very low chance of coming out.. in fact some said im taking quite a big risk actualli.. and guess what that topic came out=) mind you i hate spotting qns hahas.. cos its so super unsafe.. but i love trusting my God=)
On last friday
i had my modern world history.. i din manage to read much on thursday night and i decided.. der was no enough time so i spotted cold war desperately.. but my God showed me how much more He can do than me.. cold war din come out at all BUT i attempted russia as memories came back to me and i managed to remember lots of stuffs completing my qns B..
the whole of last week was a crazy week for me as on 1 side i was super stressed up but on the other side my God showed me how powerful He is enough to make me fear and know He is God.
Today
i had my maths paper 1 and i looked through the paper.. i had arnd 3 qns of i duno how to do.. at 1 moment.. i decided to move on and trust my God that when i return this qns would be defeated by me.. and yea i did all 3 qns and only 2 went wrong both were careless mistakes.. lets see if i get my 76/80=) im pretty sure i would get 70 marks and above. but all this is thanks to my God who accompanied through this exams.
to all christians out there who are going through exams and reading my blog God says in
Isaiah 41:10 Come to me all who you are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
[i will emerge.]

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 4:19 PM 」

arh!!!! 2 crazy wks!

heh.. din manage to blog at nite.. so i decided to blog nw.. its morning.. =X gonna have my SS paper soon.. I HATE SS!! but my ss teacher is kinda gd.. i tink my frens have this same tinking as mi..? hais.. the more i hate SS the more i love chem.. argh.. i focused too much on chem ler.. nw SS dieing.. gosh.. after prelims still nid to memorise .. = o ya.. my practicals was ok.. quite easy.. just 1 or 2 qns may get wrong.. shud be able to pass a lil above avg i hope? a pass wud be minimum bahs.. i guess=X yeap.. EL papers.. hahas.. they were.. quite ok i guess.. share more details nx time.. and.. i love.. my RC!! =/ i enjoy tt place super lots.. partly its becos its opp my hse =) k cyas.. bye
[embarking on watching past animes.. want to watch fma again.. black cat oso..]

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 8:34 AM 」

how do u noe if u have lost to a certain someting?

hahas.. lets start.. todae's combined service is like WOW! kinda effective for mi. o ya.. actualli there is practically help for every subject.. cos u just need to ask arnd and u will see help coming.. so yeah its a super cool ting to have both services together and i worked in infocounter with a guy which was frm another service.. so yeah! another new friend.. saw this security[all this are done by our youths in church..] so long liao hahas.. so yeah.. back to my heading.. lets give an example.. you cant do maths well.. and u r frustrated.. so you decided to just keep your mouth shut and say " AIYA HECK CARE LA. MATHS NIA MAR" ya right.. frm tt moment onwards you LOST big time.. same goes to science.. etc etc.. so whenever u meet 1 prob which you THINK you cant overcome. YOU LOSE! its just anyway of telling people.. ima loser larh.. BUT hey im trying to fake it out that im winning k?=) gosh.. just hw mani more do i have to see.. hai.. its kinda boring..
o ya.. i wan to encourage my friends.. lets just hope they see it?=)
to .. daryl.. siao eh.. we all know you are just plain fast at picking new tings.. NOT games ONLY. ur studies too.. you are clever larh hahas..
freeman.. you arh.. dun nid to sae.. you are definitely one clever guy too.. just a bit of effort and u get your tings done.. with lotsa more effort.. you definitely will be ONE of those on the screens=)
jess.. hahas.. jiayou! i noe u have alrd started mugging.. ur dreams of a businesswomen will come true.. !=)
the three of you jiayou for ur art!
shawn.. i realli wana thank you.. cos u and xh realli helped mi build up the foundation for sciences that i missed out for more den 1 yr.. u too can be one of those up on the screens..
LASTLY.. to everyone out der reading my posts.. U CAN GET GD GRADES!! just work for this last 1 to 2months.. ! til then.. CYAS!

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 8:48 AM 」

so mani tings in so lil daes

i have been having remedials tis whole wk.. except wednesday.. guess the 2 daes of chemistry was helpful! i guess wads left for revision is metals.. and i would be quite ok in chemistry.. studied on both wednesday and thursday.. todae is a whole different ting.. had arnd 3hrs+ of chem.. woah.. first time my class asked for more of chem.. altho onli half and maybe less turned up? went to food palace to have chicken cutlet.. saw some e5 friends.. 3 of them actualli.. after tt went home.. WOAH.. was real tired k.. i slept.. woke up at arnd 2.45 .. went down to RC! woo.. shiok arhs.. we had our GRADS CG! MAN.. it was realli enjoyable.. just the sec4s.. wooo.. so lil ppl so much fun.. i realli enjoy this arrangement.. but i guess we still have to think for others too.. hahas.. o ya.. wanted to watch movie.. hais.. but no good movies tt was available at 7+ real good ones were onli available at like 11pm+ ? too late ler.. hahas.. maybe after Os i wud get to enjoy such movies.. well.. guess i gotta save up.. isit because i can see thru lies or isit cos they are just too obvious to not be lies? hahas.. guess its nt tt gd either.. anywaes.. gotta prepare for studying.. altho der wud be studying at my church! gosh.. help provided oso.. [btw my church is not a cathedral or smth lidat.. it is actualli an auditorium.. ] if anyone is interested to study frm 11.30 to 1+ and enjoy arnd 2hrs.. feel free to ask mi for more details.. i will cfm on wad subjects later.. so.. CYAS! =)

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 7:42 AM 」

u nv know til you experienced it=)

once.. there was this person who has told mi this.. people have tasted the apple and found the apple nice. BUT when you do not know how it tastes until you have tasted it.. its true=) my friends.. i do not introduce what i do not think is good.. just like my past entries on movies.. i onli introduce gd ones ive seen.. i do not introduce movies which i do not think its gd.. but its still up to you to decided whether its gd yeah? =) just like how i have been in church. if going to church was really a chore that i go der and suffer.. hahs.. i would have left long ago.. yes i agree.. i have thought of leaving church b4.. but what caused mi for that thought.. was because of my forgetfulness.. i only remembered of the situations ive met.. but i forgot the part where i have learnt and matured in.. the group of trustworthy friends i have found.. i wouldnt have asked u guys down if it was boring hahs.. i only wanted to introduce to you guys what i felt is good.. its still up to you whether u decided to give it a try.. or u decided to remain as someone who thinks that church is DEFINITELY not a place for him/her.. i had that same exact thinking.. but i decided to just try.. if im not pleased, im free to leave.. no harm at all=) i have definitely chosed the right decisions.. im glad i did.. not.. leave.. thanks.. yiqin.. winstar.. nigel.. nicholas.. glenn.. shane.. chuan jie.. and dennis.. and also. derrick=) and so many others i wud like to thank but it wud be quite long.. thanks guys! =)

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 5:27 PM 」

ahhhhh!!

shucks arh.. i overslept.. its 822am nw.. im supposed to go for bio at 730am! siao arh.. den had a night mare also.. HYPER SCARY!! man.. if i ever go into that situation ive met.. k.. my dream started at a classroom.. o lvl at class rm.. k weird BUT its a dream larh k.. mr silva invigilator.. the "characters" in my dream was a few friends in my class i tink.. firstly i sat down.. haven start paper yet.. halfway thru my friend ask mi.. "you want change place anot? " den i " ok lorh" CRAZY RITE! den we ask mr silva.. he sae OK oso! -.- so went to sit in this very ulu place.. oso duno why go der.. den my fren start ler.. i was like.. START LIAO ARH?! den my dream fast forward.. my friend was sleeping.. so i woke my friend up telling her that i cant do my paper.. its too dark ler..[i din noe why i took so long to shift place-.-] so i told mr silva i needed to change my place.. den he oked it.. he said he knew there cant study de.. den i sat down.. and i saw another friend.. when i sit down.. my friend flipped the o lvl paper to the front.. she finished the paper ler! o yarh.. its chemistry paper.. so she was like HUH?! u haven start your paper arh! den i was like yarh.. den i realised I HAD VERY LIL TIME LEFT!! so i tried to chiong// but duno frm wer come out.. alot of work sheets.. den i finalli found my o lvl paper.. i oso duno why.. my fren offered to give me the ans for mcq.. but the answers WAS SUPER WEIRD!! have 2 and 1/2 as ans.. 2[square] 4 and 1/2.. .. i was like have meh?! den my fren said gt.. some answer sheets[ for assessment i tink] also have such ans.. den my dream ended.. super crazy dream..

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 8:00 AM 」

my limits?

Thoughts
so mani tings happening. some with mi knowing and some without. all these if i tink too much i would be troubled. in fact i have overcome it by lifting all my doubts and thinkings onto God. really realised the guage of me being able to love and accept someone is super limited.. so i seek for an guage given to me.. with a limit much bigger than what i have.. increasing on a daily basis.. i am a unperfect person after all hahs=) i have down times.. but i will be carried up on my feet and do my best to be the Job mentioned during the sermon.. this guy is just so.. how should i sae.. powerful? the will he has.. is different.. he does not act to what his body wants.. but what his mind wants.. being someone that is authentic[real] is hard.. for most i guess.. even if you are in church.. unless you have the intention.. most probably you will just put on another mask onto your many layers of mask.. so.. you just have to know if the circle of friends you have.. is willing to accept the real you.. find it. i have really found mine.. but many have not yet found their TRUE friends.. ive counted.. and i can definitely say i have found more than 1 true friend.. hahs.. yes my true friends do fail me.. they too are imperfect.. same as me.. but.. i accept them for who they are.. i do not want to only have a horizontal relationship with God.. i want a vertical relationship too.. to be able to truly love God.. my anxiety.. my anxiousness.. my angers.. my situations.. i have finally found the person to carry it.. and making my burdens light.. and to go to the extent of carrying me.. when i fall greatly..
humans.. we are all contradicting beings.. but there will be a time where people will start to contradict themselves less..

Signing off, aL0y.

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「 flying away? 8:49 AM 」

morning was shiok arh!

woke up at arnd 8am.. automatically i guess.. and so.. i went for DMM at 9am led by dennis! wooo.. hahas.. today was not about planning.. it was teaching us smth new to learn.. meditate..[not floating=.= its jus focusing and understanding.] k.. smth nt veri applicable to most.. so.. yarhs.. interesting ting i learnt.. quite applicable to mi i guess..=) after tt we went for lunch.. quite full.. so we went to buy bubble tea..[guess i shud realli recommend the shop bahs?] k.. this shop tt sells waffle.. near vcd shop de.. quite new.. nice place to go i guess.. drinks were ok.. the owner oso quite friendly.. guess they will be "fighting" with A1 bahs .. hahs. but its realli a nice place.. u go ler u will noe.. =) so yeap..went back.. to RC for studying.. den saw the auntie selling mixed rice in my sch..? din noe that nicholas and nigel's mum knew her.. so Singapore is really that small eh.. hahs.. den studied.. up til arnd 5+ ? den played something.. i dun realli noe wads it called.. the feathery ting that has a small weight as the base.. for "kicking" de.. yarhs.. duno if u guys noe.. but anywaes.. it was not very fun at first.. cos i VERY long nv play ler.. so.. yarh.. u noe larhs.. miss here and der.. but it started to be fun after awhile.. when we were able to control it abit more.. not realli like KNOW how to play larh.. but its just better than the first few times=.= yeah.. after.. awhile.. we played mahjong=X its PLAY not GAMBLE. hahas.. yeah.. i won a few times=/.. altho i dun realli noe hw to play it like.. shi san yeow[13 ones.. converted directly=.= ] nvm.. its jus some pattern of winning.. which i dun realli noe.. i onli noe basics yarh.. til arnd 7 lidat.. went back studying again.. so read up chem.. and realise.. actualli my chemistry onli left abit of revising.. arnd 2chapters? realli thank xh and shawn man.. they realli helped mi alot=) guess i kinda irritated them sometimes.. sorry k?=) cos im not gd at chem .. but now its much more and alot more better.. at least i would pass bahs i tink.. i hope so.. NOW.. its all bio.. bio and bio.. mock exams on bio! its on mon.. gosh.. better study.. dun wana fail it.. get an A1 nw first! let ms lin happy.. so i guess.. that would be her teachers' day present? i guess it would be a nice gift.. YEAH! will work hard to it.. yeap.. todae was a nice day that was spent.. gotta be studying bio like siao ler.. tink im gonna bring my notes everywer.. lol.. and revising whenever i can.. which is quite.. hiong i guess.. but its ok.. i realli wana get gd grades.. c'mon! so yep. friends RMB our september holidays are not HOLIDAYS for us. get it? its a studying time for u guys nw.. suffer and reap.. OR enjoy and suffer.. choose.. i can onli say there is NO impossible to get grades in my life.. i used to think tt way.. but not nw! cos im gonna prove it. words without actions are dead. actualli its a bible verse larhs.. editted the words.. but the principle still applies.. so yeah! choose wisely..=) cyas ppl

Signing off, aL0y.

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